A Paper Tiger

here’s an idea i thought of today.

do you know what the person you want to be is like?

try writing about your life from the perspective of your matured and more capable self.
your problems
your decisions
anything currently happening in your life

write as if you were that person that is smarter, doesn’t suffer from your fears or shortcomings. the one that does what they should instead of just knowing that they should.  what would they do in your situation?

if you can get into the head of that “better you” then maybe you can start becoming them too.

at least, that’s what i think i need to do.  try.

tonight i was watching some videos of me playing guitar that i recorded quite a while ago.

and i realized,

i was better then than i am now.

and i am so unhappy about that.

so unhappy.

taking my time with things and indulging in little distractions.

but i’m never putting that on my resume.

its’ funny when i’m sitting in my chair at the computer and the 50 pound dog comes up to me, nudges my arm up over her head, and then proceeds to climb onto my lap. and she just hangs out there for a little while.

bigger dogs just want to be held sometimes too.

(she did it again while i was typing this out.  silly dog.)

i accidentally went to work today.

i wasn’t supposed to be working.

they said “what are you doing here?”

and i replied “i wrote down that i’m working today”

and i was wrong.

that’s one of the happiest things to be wrong about.

i could use a nap.

last night i ate some meijer brand pb&j ice cream.

thanks goes to alex hull for alerting me to the existence of said ice cream.

it was actually pretty good.

grape jelly though.

still good.

pb&j still rulez.